Already much better today, at least emotionally. I am still feeling stupid that I didn’t see or take action sooner about being chronic fatigued (CFS). I also took a medicine this morning called Miracle Mineral Supplement (MMS), which is an amazing product based on Chlorine dioxide (essentially, bleach) that heals almost everything by alkalizing the blood, costs virtually nothing, and is particularly indicated for auto-immune disorders. I know it sounds far-fetched, but I personally know two people, one of whom is a medical doctor, who cured very severe mold allergies and pneumonia in a matter of days. I took it this morning and didn’t have any side-effects but felt extremely spacy, tired and happy all morning. I am confident that between the raw foods and MMS I’ll take care of the CFS within 3-4 days.
I feel like I need to continue spending the next few days just being in the flow of life and not worry about finding work. I feel somehow that the job thing will get handled by the time we go to Shalom Mountain. So, as crazy as this may sound, I am not worrying about it. I am actually extremely happy. My raw foods coach, Arnold from Arnold’s way (who is a wonderful and inspirational person), says that the basic element of all healing is love. You can eat the right food and exercise the right amount but if you don’t treat yourself and others with love it won’t work. In terms of my job, it’s a moot point anyway – 1 or 2 hours a day is all I can do right now. I was able to work two good hours yesterday on a client project and it felt very good.
The other thing that I am very aware of is that money is not the only resource. We are very rich in so many things right now – I can see my health improving, our community is thriving (12 people registered in Basic Sensuality as of yesterday, and other events including Yoga bootcamp starting up), movement in our careers and livelihood, there are major changes and a new level of truth-telling in my marriage, the Basic Sensuality course coming at the end of the month, our trip to Shalom Mountain… I have so much to be grateful for, the next month is looking like one of the most intense transformational times of my life. I cannot imagine that such an energetic chain of events could not lead to a good outcome.
I am not getting any action at all on the contract day-job search, there are very limited opportunities, so it does appear that I am going to be working from home over the internet again. I had kind of given up on the idea of another internet job as it didn’t seem to be possible but it now seems like this is the way to go.
