I have fallen off any semblance of schedule since day 12 (Jan. 23rd). The simple truth (and this is where having a journal is really helpful) is that I have been suffering from a continuous stream of minor illnesses since starting my research 6 weeks ago and starting the experiment 3 weeks ago. I had an absolutely spectacular, ecstatic time from day 3 to 12, and things have been either flat or steeply downhill since then. This last weekend I had a major conflict with Rebekah that quite destroyed me, and I was very depressed, sick and exhausted all weekend. It was resolved Sunday afternoon, it is now very good and in fact it’s a major re-birth of our relationship and of our love, which I may write about some other time, but I am still sick today. I spent the day putting together the pieces, but the reconstruction is only half done. Bottom line is that it’s not possible to sustain any kind of program in my current health circumstances. This should be manifestly obvious, but when I get so incredibly high as I was for approximately the first 10 days of this program I lose some degree of reality perspective.
Anyway, I went back to my raw foods class tonight, got inspired again (of course) and remembered – duh, what is the matter with me? – how good I felt when I was doing primarily raw foods, so I am returning to that program while continuing on the polyphasic sleep as much as possible. I had stopped eating raw because I had lost some weight, but I got some ideas for increasing caloric intake, and from tomorrow I will start again eating only raw until dinner. That was the program that worked for me, and spectacularly so.
Now I could kick myself because it took me 6 weeks to get this, and our financial situation is increasingly desperate. I really need to find a job in the next two weeks, "no ifs ands or buts".
In addition to the raw foods program, I have created another program that I am very excited about. I am calling it "Yoga transformational bootcamp" and it’s a group that meets every weekday from 6 to 8am at Trellis House to do yoga, chanting, and a sharing circle in the style of a Mastermind group. The announcement went out to all my lists this morning and I have gotten some good feedback already. I am hoping for at least 2-3 registrations (I am only charging $25/wk for the pilot program), and that this will become a huge part of my success and the success of other members of the group, which I will document and which could potentially become a major business, possibly dramatically shortening the time that I need to continue doing technical work. This is extremely exciting, but I am still too out-of-it from the weekend to be feeling much right now.
I also tried Yerba Mate this morning, friends have been recommending I try it. It made me very stoned, in a mellow kind of way, but still stoned. It really does no good to swap one drug for another, so the writing is on the wall here. It’s lemon juice, maple syrup and hot water from now on. I will have green smoothies until lunch (carrot / apple / lettuce) and maybe an avocado / walnut / tomato salad for lunch, and boiled potato and steamed kale for supper. I expect this kind of diet will dispatch any health concerns within 3-4 days and I can then start to expand the food choices.
I feel pretty stupid not to have done this before – it’s really so simple – but hey, live and learn…
