3am
I am back on polyphasic sleep and juicing after a few days hiatus. Things got a little out-of-control over the weekend and my health suffered a bit and I chose to sleep. But it’s nice to realize that I’ve been on the same program for 9 days now (it’s not some fad), I think that must be a record for me :).
Some conflict with Rebekah yesterday in which I said "if I am not happy we’re fucked". Which I believe is very true, nobody can sustain a disciplined and productive life – let alone a life in which there is a financial imperative to start making $6-8k /mth on short notice and in the middle of a career change – without being happy.
Also I realized over the weekend that very few people really get what I’m up to right now. Quite a few think that I’m somewhat frantically and anxiously grasping for imaginary solutions to the challenges I am facing. The truth is that I am conducting the most radical experiment in consciousness of my entire life, one that is designed to vastly expand my happiness, quality of relationships, effectiveness in the world and degree of contribution – which experiment is being spectacularly successful. 9 days and I am already a new man. I am really looking forward to posting to "Marc’s life" after 30 days of this. I posted to "Marc’s life" on day 5 and again got some negative feedback.
Today I am starting again to exercise after the first shift (6-8am) so I can nap by noon and so hopefully begin the third shift by 2-3pm. Exercise, diet and quality of sleep is, at the moment, the key to my happiness and well-being. It would be really fabulous if I can eventually keep the afternoon nap to 2 hours or less in order to begin the third shift at 2pm and finish my work-day by 6pm (for a total of 6 hours sleep). This would enable me to do my work-related training and personal networking during the third shift which has been my dream all along. Even if I spend half of the third shift on work-related training (2 hours) I will eventually acquire whatever skills I need (.Net etc)
I am spending the day again on personal and work networking, I really feel uncomfortable and out-of-control with 1000 mails still in my inbox – a leftover from the 6 months I worked at Atiam.
Things are still pretty wild here as the child custody psychologist coming tomorrow. It does feel wonderful to finally start to get this case resolved.
Ariana has been hysterical for 4-5 days over her science project, she chose one that is developmentally too high for her and she thinks she is going to flunk 4th grade as a result. I honestly have a hard time bearing her level of victimization, it’s all I can do to keep myself from yelling at her, she finally calmed last night (Rebekah performed her magic) and got happy and enthusiastic about it. When she is happy she is the most delightful child one can imagine. I am feeling that I need to start to focus more deliberate time on getting related to her, so that I have more influence on her when she gets like this. The problem is – and always has been – that we don’t have any interests in common. She used to go the gym with me to do "Active Zone" (exercise games for kids) but has lost interest in that. Nonetheless she has become extremely affectionate over the last 6 months and is very bonded with me now.
12:30pm
Had an extraordinarily happy and productive day. It’s intoxicating to be feeling so well and effective. I did have tea, it was a conscious choice, it makes me quite wired and I need to up the exercise in order to be able to sleep afterwards (heading to the park now, in addition to working out this morning). Drinking tea is definitely not advisable on a regular basis, but it sure is nice. I might try Yerba Mate actually, next time I get the craving, I hear good things about it but I doubt its any better than black tea.
Anyway, workday is done, yay (some major housework and parenting this afternoon so skipping the third work shift).
